stressed

so this is the most stressful time of the year for me as a pre-k teacher. next week, we start our conferences. they are so time consuming to write up. it's really annoying. also, since we switched to the online sampling system, i'm so confused on what i need to print or how to even generate ANYTHING. i've tried following the directions that we were given in the training, but it DOESN'T work. and i should email or call someone, but i always forget until it's too late. i am so STRESSED!! and my class is ten times crazier than they were! they are driving me completely insane!! and i feel like i do ALL the discipline in my class. therefore, i feel like a single Mom. i really hope that i was more help when i was a ta, than mine is. because i have literally collected ALL the assessment myself, which is fine, but i really hope the light bulb clicks on before she becomes a teacher. i feel a little bad bashing her bc she's a really cool person, but i need to vent SOMEWHERE. lol. AND during the mist of all of this. the center wants me to decorate my room for Christmas. REALLY?! they said i couldn't hang much on the walls bc it's a fire hazard, so what the hell?! and when do you expect me to find the time?! i'm kinda busy right now. grrr...on a positive note, the cook, who is the sweetest woman ever, told me today that if i can make it through this year, i will never face anything harder than what i am dealing with now. it feels good to have her support bc the directors don't give it. they just say, "we know your class is rough". pre-k in general is just driving me crazy. i'm praying to find something new for next semester. it isn't fair to have to deal with ALL the bs that i do and have no benefits, not get paid for breaks and 1 sick day. ahhhhhhhhhhhh.


on another note, my bday is this weekend. i'm kinda excited and kinda not. i wanna plan something, but my friends are scattered now, and i don't know if we'll have extra money since my check will only be for 1 week. i've been searching for part time jobs just to help out during these dry spells, but no such luck yet. i will not give up. and i will not lose faith. speaking of which, i want to get the word 'faith' tattooed on my wrist as a daily remember that God will never leave my side as long as i believe in Him. :)

and being so busy, i didn't realize that i was running low on singulair and now i'm out. it sucks, but i really need it. i re-ordered it yesterday, so hopefully it will be here soon!